Thursday, June 30, 2011

Day 8: The Word's You'll Never Say....................To Me

Crush: Tyler and I still talk..........as friends. Dave and I have barely spoken in weeks. I didn't do anything, just we lost whatever we had! I wish I could find an Amazing Boyfriend. Ha, like that'll ever happen. So here's to SINGLE-NESS!

Today: I had drumline and at weight watchers I HIT THE -20.2 LBS MARK! WAY TO GO ME! It is amazing! I had strawberries, grilled cheese, potatoes, whipped cream! Now I packed for Courtney's house and i'm going to her party later.

Bucket Filling and Nice-ness Challenge!!!!!: I said hi to many people on my walk to get Courtney's birthday present and Larissa's babyshower presents. (i'll post pics of all)

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Day 7: A Happy Ending?

Weight Watchers: My weigh in is tomorrow. I've had a  lot of salt and not a lot of exercise. I really need to break this habit. My problem is I don't really care for our water. Bottled water I could gulp down like their is no tomorrow. Our water is NASTY. Let's hope for a GREAT weigh in.

Home life: Today was 'alright. I started playing Monopoly with Mike, then he got sick. We have a half-played game sitting on the table. I haven't really done much all day. I've watched tv and texted Tyler. Which we are trying a friends with benifits type thing. I don't know how well this is going to go over but whatever I'll give it a try.

Bucket filling: I'm a very competitive person so Mike thought it was strange I was complimenting him while he was kicking my butt today. I've really shaped things up recently! Keep trying to do it even if it is hard!

Niceness Challenge: So far I've done overall pretty good at this with one slip up yesterday. We all fall sometimes, we just gotta dust ourselfs off and get back up. That's what I did today!

Closing thoughts: Yes todays entry was crappy but I haven't had my inspiration quite today! Let me try and find some! Well I'm going to play some Wii!

~$!DN3Y~

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Day 6: A Crush's Tale

I'm use to heartbreaks. I win some, I lose some. Lately I've really lost some. I lost 2 guys in 2 weeks. I fell hard for both of them. I really fell hard for this last guy. The distance was unmanageable. It stinks because I really think we'd be good together. I understand why we can't do it right now, but I still wish I could try. It's probably obvious who it is by my "Who's who" post. It's Tyler aka Texas. A Florida/Michigan relationship would be hard. I would try it though. It's just something to get over. I hate hearing he has a date. I'm glad he having fun and is happy! However Tyler and I have 2 dates planned. One when he comes up around the winter time. Another is probably going to be next year to Michigan Adventures of Cedar Point and do the rip Cord. I really want to do it, he does to. I wonder how things will go! Wish me luck! I also wish to find an amazing boyfriend, but not right now. I'm cool with just chilling and enjoying life!

Today was a rather relaxed day. I had drumline earlier in the day. The bass section knows everything. We know all the drumline songs. So we were laying on the sidewalk, walking around school, and goofing of. The rest of the drumline called us out for goofing off and wanted us to prove to them that we can play it. We showed them up. Needless to say the bass section rocks! When I got home I felt rather sick. I ate some soup and laid down. I felt very sick to my stomach. I knew I needed to do chores so I told my Carol to wake me up at 2 (an hour and a half before my mom gets home). Well it was 2:15 and she hadn't woken me up. Luckily, my phone was on vibrate someone texted me and I woke up. My other sister Holly, is hanging out with my grandma Kent tomorrow so she did chores. Half way threw chores she decided to tell me she wasn't going to do two chores. I was angered that I had to pick up her chores when tomorrow I'm going to have to do them all. I just agreed because I'd rather not fight about something as stupid as chores. I'd also rather not get yelled at by my mom tomorrow. After chores, I hoped on Facebook (which I think is kind of ridiculous how popular it is) and talked to Tyler. Ahhhh *heart beats faster*.  I realised I needed to finish my summer homework (I'm in a Advanced Placement history class, earning college credit) so I got on that. That was basically my boring, unproductive, crush filled day! (:

My Bucket filling challenge: How is the bucket filling going? I'm sorry I didn't ask yesterday! How rude of me! I think for me, this challenge is the hardest for me. I don't empty buckets but I'm sure not use to FILLING them. However mini Mat (Bass buddy) and I went on a random walk around the school. We talked about random things including his art collection. We defiantly were boosting each other's self esteem. So I'm rather happy with myself. It wasn't as hard as I thought. Tyler and I fill each other's buckets all the time. Even though I hate hearing of the girls in his life, I'm still supportive and wishes him the best!

My niceness Challenge: Today I have to admit of a little back tracking. It wasn't to a real person. It was a commercial for those colleges that 'turned people's lives around' the girl that came on had a lip piercing and tongue and eyebrow piercing. She was talking how it made her more professional and was a good choice. My sister and I agreed that she should take out her piercings before we took her seriously. Which was rude because it's her freedom of speech and she obviously enjoys it. Hopefully tomorrow goes better and we can't win them all!

Closing thoughts: You can't always win everything and it takes effort to make things worth while. And I fall for people who don't want to catch me T.T

~$!DN3Y~

Monday, June 27, 2011

Day 5: Rain is A Good Thing

 So there's this boy......Many teenage girls say that to their best friends. I'm one of those. I don't do it as often as others. I've only ever dated 5 people, others the list is to long to count. I like committed, long term, true love type things. I like people A LOT like me and then opposite a little. Mainly the guy needs to put up with my stubborness. When I have a cause I'll do anything to fight for it. Well this boy I REALLY want to date, BUT I need to get to know him more. We've stayed up for 48 hours talking and have had QUITE a few funny moments. We even have our own inside joke already (Yeah like those lame couples!). It's awesomKe. It was a typo, resulting in a totally new spelling of the word. I really Like him. I'll DEFIANTLY keep you posted, and maybe He will read this.

Next, getting to the name of this post, RAIN IS A GOOD THING. Not only is that song an amazing song, but it really is true. I challenge you next time it's just raining (not thundering) go outside and sit on your driveway. Leave your phone inside, leave your music, leave everything; don't bother changing into a bathing suit, just sit. Enjoy the rain hitting your face, the sound of birds chirping, the sound of rain. It's very relaxing and a good time to think. Its a good feeling, feeling the rain roll down your face as another hits your face. It rained here today and that's what I did. I sat on my picnic table and sat there till it stopped raining and I was inspired to write this post (: (You can also thank this boy for my rebellious smiles).

My nice-ness challenge: How is that going for you? Today I went to my families cook out dinner on Monday nights. The neighbor was over and she brought her family who was from Russia. None of them spoke English and no one could translate. We used hand motions and a ipod translator to communicate. It was a nice experience. There was a boy I would say to be between 10 and 12. He wanted to go on the tire swing (a large tire connected to a rope on a huge tree). We had to show him how to position himself and how to stop. Although we were not physically speaking to him, we still communicated. Later on we had to round up the 276 hens into their coop. There is only one rooster. I had to use hand motions to tell this boy to be careful of his spike. It took a little more effort but he knew what I meant. Today is also my nephew Brayden's birthday. We had cake and ice cream and we sang happy birthday. This boy(It isn't Michael but is the best name I can pull from it), who's name is not translatable, knew all the lyrics and sang along with us. I think it was a nice experience it most defiantly made me appreciate the fact that everyone can understand what I'm saying to them. I encourage you to continue with your socializing it may even help you

FIND YOURSELF
~$!DN3Y~

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Day 4: A Second Dose of the Three R's and Some Bucket Filling

Race Religion RESPECT

My friends Dave and Alexis are really close to each other, Like brothers and sisters close. See Dave is white, to be expected from a small town like mine. Alexis is black, which there is less than 20 people of mainly all kids. Alexis is adopted, and she acts like you and me. She isn't from the Ghetto and she is NOT about to hold a gun to your head. I don't even think she could load a gun (No offence Alexis I love you and all but it's true!). Yet people in our town treat all the people of color like we are in a Ghetto and these people are criminals. Well that's so NOT true and I'd like everyone to get their head's out of 1950's for a moment. Alexis is a VERY smart person and an AMAZING clarinet player! But Dave and Alexis and friends couldn't go see Super 8 in theaters because Dave has a racist friend. That angered me! Your hating on someone for something they can't control! That's like saying Brown eyed people are superior (I mean in the gene world they are), come on! This is the most ridiculous thing I think has ever happened to not only this country but countries around the world. People want to be superior to others. They want to have power over someone and make them feel bad. Well try being on the receiving end of that, maybe you'll stop it. Everyone knows the "N word" is a very BAD word. It was acceptable at one time but it was a common word not a degrading insult! But apparently I'm not allowed to call a person of color that (NOT that I ever would, but just hear me out), it's a terrible thing to do, it's rude, etc. HOWEVER! Two people of color can call each other that no problem. Now who's trying to be better than whom? I think if it's bad for one person it's bad for all you can't go changing rules for a certain class of people. That's not equality. It's a basic principle. What is done to one person for a crime is done to another person who did the same crime. Take this: Little town, Johnny and his friends decide to spray paint "Hi" on a building really big and decorative. They get caught, slapped with a fine, and forced to do community service. HOWEVER, Devin living in a the ghetto decides to spray paint "Hi" also now one would think that it should be equal punishment BUT really they get away with it A LOT more. Hrm, Lady Liberty I don't quite understand you.


My Niceness Challenge:Have you talked to someone new? Have you talked to someone you may have previously judged? Well so far I have twice! I commented on people's blogs who had similar interests as mine and left nice long comments on the good things they are writing about. Try to think that everyone has a bucket they carry around with then, or a cup or some sort of refillable object (yes a balloon will work) and everytime something nice is said about them or makes them feel good their object gets fuller but as soon as something mean is said that bucket is quickly sucked of it's content. Try to fill people's buckets and reduce your lowering as much as possible.In my opinion thinking a negative comment about someone is just as bad as saying it, so reduce your negative thought. Not only will the people around you like you more but the world seems happier because your not having a negative mind set. Sometimes the strangest things like walking up to a random girl your age, or guy, and saying I like your top! where did you get it? Can really make them feel better. You don't know that person's life story, they could have been on their way to commit suicide and you wouldn't have even noticed. That random person may even turn out to be your best friend you end up sitting in the nursing home with ramming your wheelchairs together! So just be a bucket filler!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Day 3: The Three R's: Race, Religion, RESPECT

If you want to know of a great movie for the whole family, watch That's what I am. It came out in 2011 never hitting the theaters, which is a bummer because it is a FANTASTIC movie with FABULOUS life lessons through out the entire movie. It's about a average 12 year old paired with a "nerd" "ugly" "ginger" 12 year old boy called Big G (he's the biggest kid. big ears, and a ginger) for an English project. Now he is suppose to be unattractive, but I find him rather cute! Now on the radio in the town, they have a contest write in 25 words or less your solution for world peace and you win a very nice sports car (in the 1960's). The English teacher won by using four words.

Human Dignity + Compassion = Peace

Now this leads into what I wish to talk about. See I went to Michigan Adventures. You know when you go to any amusement park you see people of all ethnic groups, speaking in different languages, wearing "different" types of clothing's. You always get some sort of "haters" for those people. The biggest group that sticks out, to me at least, is people of the Muslim faith. They are all dressed up (which I think those outfits are actually very cute, even though they aren't revealing) and I KNOW some jerk out there is thinking "Terrorist" THAT'S NOT RIGHT. My step dad is currently deployed and you know what the U.S.A. is at war with? A group of people who share a similar faith, NOT the faith as a whole! That family did NOTHING to us and WAS NOT involved in the terrorist attack on 9/11 (rest in peace all the souls who were lost that tragic day and to all the soldiers who never came home because of that and I pray all the soldiers over seas are protected and brought home safely to their loving families who miss them very much). I don't like it when people try to force a religion on you. Your an individual and you should be allowed to have your own individual ideas about things. I admit to reading both the Bible and the Satanic bible. Their were parts in both books I liked and Disliked. Its all a personal opinion. Now the Satanic bible gets a bad rap as worshiping the devil when ACTUALLY is a highly offensive religion to some because it promotes happiness as long as you follow the laws. Such as, if your a male and your married to a female but want another female which would be considered adultery your allowed to IF your wife says it is okay. People think that is the devil's work ergo Satanic. Read it before your judge please! Once you found your faith, stick to it! I'm glad you found something to believe in! I'm still finding mine, ha I'm still finding me! But please don't go bashing other's people religion because you don't agree with it, that's not nice and you don't wish that to happen about you.
If You Don't Have Anything Nice At All Don't Say Anything At All


Do Onto Others As You Want Others To Do Onto You

The next thing is people who speak a different language. Yes I'm guilty of wishing people just spoke English  so I knew they weren't bad mouthing things or because I thought it was annoying. I apologise to the people I wished that upon because it's your FREEDOM to speak whatever language, even if it is made up, in this great country of mine. Our country does not have a official language because we honor THE THREE R'S (That I Cleverly Made Up). I bet people in other countries that do not speak English, or whatever language you speak, aren't to fond of hearing us speak but you know what they respect it. This country is so CRUEL to each other. It is not cool!

Tolerance: The One Thing The World Lacks

You can never get everyone in the world to agree on the same thing. Coke or Pepsi. Such a basic question but the world will never agree on one or the other. Not everyone can be convinced of everything such as AIDS cannot be spread threw saliva UNLESS you consume over one gallon of it rather quickly but who in 15 minutes will down one gallon of freshly made AIDS infected saliva? not many. Another AIDS cannot be spread threw toilet seats UNLESS a AIDS infected person is using the bathroom and has a bleeding sore on their buttocks and within 15 seconds your buttocks with a bleeding sore in the same spot comes in contact with the blood. honestly who is out of the bathroom THAT fast (with a bleeding sore!) and some one's butt on the seat? IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN PEOPLE! Gay, Homosexual, Sparkle fairy, Faggot, etc. Those can hurt people's feelings. That topic is highly debate-able. The reason why most states do not allow same sex marriage is because they wouldn't get as much money for insurance. I believe that is ridiculous because this is THE LAND OF THE FREE, but apparently someone did not get the message. It is proven being homosexual (A word I think everyone will find non offencive) is in your DNA and is NOT a chosen thing. I think Love IS love and as long as two (or even three or more, if they are all happy) people are happy then let them be in love. Let them be happy the way they are. You may not like it, but they do. I do not wish to see full blown same sex make outs but I don't wish to see opposite sex couples do that either a peck kiss is FINE! (Rest in peace all the bullied people who committed suicide over their sexual orientation)

Love Knows NO Boundaries! <3

Respect. Be tolerant of other's choices. You may not like them but they do! Please let them be! I challenge you this week to have an open mind about everyone you see. That weird guy down the street based off of looks that he CAN'T control, get to know him! Be friendly! Try new things! Make new friends!

R-E-S-P-E-C-T Find Out What That Means To ME!

Till Then,
Sydney OUT
$!DN3Y

Friday, June 24, 2011

Day 2: Who's Who

I plan to be VERY open to you. If one of my friends were to hop on here and read my blog, they will know EXACTLY what I'm talking about. So Here is my whole family and friends with a description! I've only included their last initial for privacy reasons.

Friends:
Aaron E- Class of 2011. He's openly Gay. I look up to him. He isn't afraid to be himself and he is dedicated to helping others. He WILL be famous one day.
Aaron P- Class of 2007. My Friend Larissa's boyfriend. He's VERY nice!
Alexis J- Class of 2014. My crazy clarinet buddy!
Allison B- Class of 2014. My other crazy clarinet buddy! we call her Ally-son.
Andrew A- Class of 2014. My OTHER crazy clarinet buddy!
Angela C- Class of 2012. She is the person who knows the most about my life, even more than my parents! She is the best person to talk to in the world!
Ann L- Class of 2012. One Parenthood class and we became besties!
Bailey B- Class of 2016. My sister's best friend. She lives 2 houses away from us!
Cassie C- Class of 2012. Drumline buddies! She plays Cymbals for the second year in a row, and she is NOT happy about it!
Courtney F- Class of 2013. She's my pen pal from Australia.
Courtney K-Class of 2013. Another parenthood Buddy! Very amazing chicka!
Dan S- Class of 2013. Percussionist in band. Very funky personality!
Dave P- Class of 2014. My Snare buddy on drumline! He's hilarious!
Ed E- Class of 2013. An Ex boyfriend of mine. He's like my brother!
Cris A-Class of 2000ish. He's in National Guard with My step dad. We all call him our brother.
Janice S-Class of 2012.  One of my close girl friends.
John S- Class of 2013. We often call him Soda Pop because of his last name. He is like my brother! he knows as much as Angela.
Jake S-Should be Class of 2011, but to be determined. Ex boyfriend, BIGGEST REGRET
Kaitlyn H-Class of 2013. We call her Kat and she is very caring!
Kayla C- Class of 2014. She's dating Soda pop aka John. She's a lot like me!
Larissa H- Class of 2012. My baby mama! Dating Aaron. Gracie is due August 20th.
Mat S- Class of 2014. Bass drum buddy with me!
Sarah B- Class of 2014. Clarinet buddy! And yes she is crazy awesome!
Shelby K- Class of 2013. My third and final parenthood Buddy!
Sam S-Class of 2013. We've known each other since we were 6. We had a fall out when she fell for my boyfriend (Jake). but we broke up and now they are happily dating. We are fixing the friendship!
Tyler R- Class of 2014. We went to summer camp together in 2010. He lives in Florida but he's from Michigan.
Jerome S- Class of 2013. One of my close guy friends he lives 20 minutes away.
Lucas R-Class of 2012. Played softball with Jake S and Jake M and thought he was cute!
Emily A- Tylers flirt buddy in Florida
Fam{ILY}:
Todd W- Step dad Married to Becki
Becki W- Mom Married to Todd
John S- Dad married to Kim
Kim S- Step mom Married to John Adam and Nathan are her kids
Adam P- Step Brother, Married to Krista, Mother is Kim. Brayden and Cameryn and Brooklyn's dad.
Brayden- born in 2004. My nephew, Adam's  and Krista's son
Cameryn- Born in 2010, My Niece Adam's Daughter (Sydney's daughter, Sydney is Adam's ex Girlfriend)
Brooklyn- Born in 2005. MY Niece. Adam and Krista's Daughter
Nathan S-Step Brother, Engaged to Britney. Mother Is Kim.
Britney N- Nathan's Fiance.
Mike W- Brother born in 2001. Todd and Becki's son
Carol W- Step sister born in 1994 Todd's daughter form a previous marriage
Holly S- sister 100% blood. John and Becki's Daughter born in 1997
Pat- Ashley,erin,  Chealsea, Adam, Nick, And Anna's dad (all graduated) Mike's twin brother
Cris- Married to robin
Mike P- My uncle Drew and Cam's Dad Married to Jackie, Kims Brother
Jackie P- My Aunt Married to Mike
Cameron P- Cousin! Class of 2012. Mike's son
Drew- Cousin! Class of 2008 Mike's son
Grandma- John's Mother
Jojo- Aunt, John's Sister Jerry's sister, grandma's daughter
Mark- Married to Jojo
Grandma Kent- Becki, Debby, Sandy, Tammy, Jim, Brenda's Mother
Papa- Becki debby sandy tammy jim and brenda's father, my grandpa
Debby F- Heather and Nicole's mother
Heather- Currently pregnant baby is due January 1st 2012.
Nicole- Married to brad. Harley and Dexter's mother. Faith's Step mom
Brad-Nicole's husband. Harley, Dexter and Faith's Dad
Sandy- Doug Steve and Phil's Mother, married to Mike
Mike- Doug Steve and Phil's dad, Married to Sandy
Doug- In a relationship with Libby, Going into the Marines
Steve- Married to Jamie in the Marines
Jamie- Currently pregnant due December 2011
Phil-Married to Gina in the marines
Gina- Married to Phil
Jim-Married to Kim and Anna's Dad
Kim-Married to jim anna's mom
Anna-Kim and jim's Daughter born 1996
Brenda- Married to David, Dj's Step mom alex and Zack's mom
David-Married to Brenda Dj, Zack, And Alex's Dad
DJ- Us Army married to sam
Tammy- Married to Gary, Eric's mom
Gary-Married to Tammy
Eric- Class of 2010

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Day 1: All About Me

  • My goal in life can be described in one word => Happiness.
  • My birthday falls on the fall solstice. I technically have 2 astrological signs.(I always go with Scorpio though I mean COME ON scorpions are so much better!)
  • My weakness is spelling. Words never look right to me. The Spelling always seems off. Is that some sort of Dyslexia?
  • My strength is LOVE. It often ends in me getting hurt and wishing I was older when stuff like that didn't matter. I want my Mr. Right now. I'm tired of the pain and drama of a relationship. I always give it my all but I fall for 'Tools' so I end it. So right now I'm focused on friends and to maintain my happiness and Improving life for others. 
  • She died at the age of 79 in March, 2011 R.I.P
  • I'm often told I look like Elizabeth Taylor a famous actress. She's probably well known with the current 70 year old's. (I would say grandma's but frankly once your 20 you could possibly be a grandma)
  • I HATE the idea of teen mothers. It gives this generation a bad rap. One of my closest friends is currently pregnant. She's due August 20th. Now before everyone goes and judges her. Think of the whole picture not one little detail. She's 18, yes that is young, it was a stupid decision. She's working on moving out, even before Gracie happened. She's graduated, has a job, a supportive boyfriend (not the father). Baby daddy doesn't know he's a father, everyone assumes it's her boyfriend. Frankly he will make a better father than the other one would.
  • I love 80's songs. I barely listen to the newer songs that are out. My favorite artist is by far Alice Cooper. He is amazing and I can't wait to see him in concert! I also like Journey, ACDC, Bob Segar, Kid Rock, Ozzy Osbourne, Taylor Swift, Lynard Skynard etc.
  • I love the outdoors and camping. Actually currently I'm sitting in my pop up in my front yard writing my blog.
  • I'm not afraid to be myself. I'm sorry if that isn't good enough for you. I get along with everyone and I'm very social.
  • I often think about what qualities I want in my Mr. Right. He's going to have some big shoes to fill! I know he'll be perfect for it though.
  • I start several journals with the hope of writing cover to cover but I abandon them. I'm never able to commit to it. I hope this will break that problem.
  • I hardly watch TV. However when I do watch it, my favorite shows are 1,000 ways to die, NCIS, Degrassi, and Pretty Little Liars.
  • I would describe myself as; Determined, Responsible, Respectable, Lovable, Emotional, Honest.
  • I'm enrolled in Weight Watchers. I'm not over weight though. I only wish to see a healthier me. I enrolled in January 2011 and as of today I have lost a total of 19.8 pounds. I've learned to love veggies so MUCH more. I actually prefer steamed squash over Ice cream, strange huh?
  • I'm not a judgemental person especially when it comes to looks because who says one thing is cuter over another. It's nothing you can control. It isn't right at all! I've been on the receiving end of that and it sucks!
  • I LOVE acting and helping out in Theatre.
  • I often tend to fight for what I love. Those people know I love them very much. When you loose then you know you fought as hard as you could and you couldn't do anything more. It clearly was not ment to be.
  • I'm totally confident enough to walk up to a random stranger and cook up an interesting conversation
  • I play Clarinet, Cymbals, Bass drum, Piano (Very bad I'm improving), Snare, and currently trying to learn drum set to be in musicals
  • I DON'T SING, I have no talent for it but I'm okay with everyone knowing how crappy I sing, I guess I'm over confident on THAT part.
I'm Still Finding Myself!