Day 13: And The Player Gets Played

As you know I have three guys in my life. I'm not cheating, I'm not dating, I'm not kiss ANY OF THEM. Now it's bitten me in the ass REAL good. Tyler has a new girl. We are no longer flirt buddies. He's known her for a few weeks. I've been stabbed in the heart. I gave him a tip on how to impress Emily, the girl. I told him to get her the Vampire perfume.  Which will REALLY impress her but now I'm extremely jealous. Which isn't good! I'm so happy for him and I'm so STUPID for ever thinking I had a REAL chance with him. I guess It's my karma for leading three guys on. I feel like crying, I'd cry over the three guys. IT was Unavoidable for Tyler and I though. He would have came to Michigan and we would have TRULY dated gotten really close and when it was time for him to leave we would have stayed together. Then we would have meet someone else and faded apart. Loosing him as a friend scares me more than anything.  I really wish him the best. I think I'm going to have close guy friends ONLY.

Lucas: We talked a little today (: He's my innocent guy although Jake M. says he smokes pot. I'm not getting involved with that side of things. It is as it is. I'm not going to be around it and I'm not going to try and change it. I think he'd be good for me. Would I like to date him, possibly. I'd need to get to know him better. I think he is defiantly cute! I sorta had a crush on him while I was dating Jake. So it is what it is.  He's very sweet but it bugs me he calls me beautifal not beautiful. It bugs me VERY much.

Jerome: He's like my brother and he knows that. He's gay and he knows it. He wants to date me though. He want to make himself want me. I only think that he will be like my gay brother! I don't know whether he and I will ever be anything more.  It's sad because yes our closeness is very good! It just isn't there! That's unfortunate. I did like him in 7th grade and he liked me in 9th. He dated SAM and Marian and I don't like that AT ALL but we make mistakes as well.

Josh: I've tried telling him off so many times, he just DOESN'T get it!


Goodnight! (:
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